Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Just keep moving....

Well, where to begin. To say that I am sore would be an understatement. When I got back from yesterdays walk I was a little sore & tired, but after a little while I just hurt. Oddly enough my upper & lower back hurt but my legs & feet were okay. I tried to rest and take it easy for the next few hours but by the time Jeremy got home last night I was sore from head to toe(arms, legs, calves all of it). I am still so glad that I went on that walk but I just have to remember not to overdo it. Then after dinner we decided to go grocery shopping-so yup you guessed it-more walking and moving. I persevered and pushed through and did okay. On the plus side we did buy some healthy snacks & I am so happy about that!  When we got home thankfully Jeremy brought in the groceries like he usually does-he is so good to me. Then I did take a hot shower which seemed to take the edge off but I woke up a lot in the night just aching and aching. Crazy that just a stupid walk made me feel this way! Ugh!  After my shower I got settled on the couch for some much deserved relaxation. I watched the Biggest Loser & tears streamed down my face the whole time. (it is always an emotional show for me but today hit me hard). I would love to have that kind of support and tools available to me in my journey, but I am so thankful that there are people out there who get to experience that. I wonder though, I know we don't always get to see everything that these people struggle with on the show, but I have always wondered if there has every been anyone on there with Fibromyalgia. What I mean is I have heard them talk about high blood pressure or cholesterol, diabetes etc etc but I would love to see what kind of steps they would take with someone like me. I know I know-not everyone is the same, but I struggle working out and trying to lose weight because of how ridiculously sore I get. There are times when I know I need to push through but then there are times when I know my body enough to know that I just need to slow down and take a break. It just makes my journey slower, more frustrating and I will be honest-hard for me to stay motivated and keep going. Anyway the tears last night-it's just that I want that so bad! I want to be healthier, I want to be happier. I want to feel good about myself again. It's not about numbers on a scale for me-it's about quality of life. I just can't keep living this way......My friend Leslie wrote this on my facebook the other day and it really encouraged me and I need to keep this in mind. She said "it doesn't matter how slow you go. You are lapping those who are sitting on the couch."  

Anyway onto today. This morning it probably won't surprise you that I woke up sore. I ate some cheerios within 20 minutes of waking to jump start my metabolism. We had to run some errands which while I knew it was going to be tough I was glad about because I knew it would get me moving which is what I needed to do. Before we left we needed to stop at our apartment complex office to ask them a question. Now normally I would just jump in the truck and we would drive up there...but not today! I decided to walk-boy was that a struggle. I was already so sore, but I did it and I felt good that I did it. I am proud of even the little things I am able to do at this point. But then off we went-in and out of the truck (did I mention Jeremy has a very tall truck which I have to jump in and out of lol), walking around the store etc and it went on like this for several errands. I do have to share one of the awesome finds I got today and that is my new shirt. It was $9.99 and we had a coupon for $10 off at Jcpenneys. So we only paid the tax-awesome deal! Here is my new shirt:

LOL I loved it! I just can't wait for he day when I can buy a smaller size...sigh-someday! 
After all the errands I was really really sore at this point-and my body was telling me it was time for a rest. So Jeremy sweet man that he is, made dinner for us. I must confess that my dinner wasn't the most healthy dinner, but I did have healthy meals and snacks the rest of the day and we are going to eat the food in the house. Can't afford not too-so not all the meals will be the best option, but we are working with what we have. 

Anyway that's how it's going so far. I am proud of me for continuing to move on a daily basis and trying the best that I can on this new journey. It was raining today-a lot of people would be annoyed by that, but even though I have to have my umbrella, rain is in some ways peaceful and comforting to me. It reminds me of that saying "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to's about learning to dance in the rain."  I had a very emotional experience once time when it rained a couple years ago. It down poured and I went out and played in the rain. I was very moving. I am not ready to share any more than that about it at this time, but let's just say I was very touched by the experience. 

Oh and last but not least-to explain the title of my blog...I am reminded of Dory from Finding Nemo when she says "just keep swimming, just keep swimming". The motto none of us will soon forget. In my case it will be "just keep moving, just keep moving"!


Susan said...

Proud of you Angela and glad you had this link on fb so I'd know about the blog. Journeling about it will be a big help on your journey. You CAN do it.

Angela said...

Thanks for all the kind words and support Susan!