Well here I am-I took a break from the daily workouts(or moving sessions as I call them) since my Mom had to move again so soon. I had to help her pack again, and of course the moving, unpacking and organizing that goes with it-talk about being sore and stressed. Thankfully that's over now, & just when I was done recovering from that it was time for Thanksgiving. I will say I was pretty proud of myself over thanksgiving-I may not have "eaten very healthy" and still did partake in the traditional foods, but I never ate until I was stuffed. I will be honest-I did not and have not weighed myself in a couple weeks. Part of me just doesn't want the bad news...I am pretty sure I have lost nothing. (last year at this time I actually lost weight through thanksgiving-oh well). Now I just can't seem to find the motivation that I had before. Just everyday life is causing me to be sore, sometimes I even wake up extremely sore-not to mention these daily headaches that I have had for a couple weeks now...sigh.
I did celebrate a birthday during this little break I took & although friends and family were all too busy to celebrate, I did get a couple neat gifts.
Here is a picture of the beautiful new fruit(I have a fruit themed kitchen) rug Jeremy bought me(been looking for 2 yrs for 1-lost my last one in the move but this one is so much prettier):
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Motivation? Are you out there?
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Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Friday, November 4, 2011
Come on body-work with me here!
Well even though I woke up less sore than yesterday, I did wake up with a MASSIVE headache (that lasted for hours!). I kept thinking to myself-come on body work with me here! I decided to wait for my body to recover one more day before attempting another walk but that doesn't mean I didn't do something active. I ate pretty healthy today so I was proud of myself for that. I had eggs & toast for breakfast then an apple for a snack. I decided one of my activities for the day would be to clean around the apartment. I knew we had one more errand to run later so I was pacing myself. When I got hungry again and it wasn't time for dinner yet I ate a banana. For dinner I had soup (the Progresso Lite soups) and salad. We ran our errand which required more walking around so I felt good about that. A couple hours after dinner I had 1 more snack-some lowfat cottage cheese and a rice cake. On Dr. Oz he mentioned eating smaller meals more often (or eating every few hours) so that's what I have been doing. I ended the evening relaxing on the couch and watching some of my DVRed shows. I feel like today was a good day all in all.
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Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Just keep moving....
Well, where to begin. To say that I am sore would be an understatement. When I got back from yesterdays walk I was a little sore & tired, but after a little while I just hurt. Oddly enough my upper & lower back hurt but my legs & feet were okay. I tried to rest and take it easy for the next few hours but by the time Jeremy got home last night I was sore from head to toe(arms, legs, calves all of it). I am still so glad that I went on that walk but I just have to remember not to overdo it. Then after dinner we decided to go grocery shopping-so yup you guessed it-more walking and moving. I persevered and pushed through and did okay. On the plus side we did buy some healthy snacks & I am so happy about that! When we got home thankfully Jeremy brought in the groceries like he usually does-he is so good to me. Then I did take a hot shower which seemed to take the edge off but I woke up a lot in the night just aching and aching. Crazy that just a stupid walk made me feel this way! Ugh! After my shower I got settled on the couch for some much deserved relaxation. I watched the Biggest Loser & tears streamed down my face the whole time. (it is always an emotional show for me but today hit me hard). I would love to have that kind of support and tools available to me in my journey, but I am so thankful that there are people out there who get to experience that. I wonder though, I know we don't always get to see everything that these people struggle with on the show, but I have always wondered if there has every been anyone on there with Fibromyalgia. What I mean is I have heard them talk about high blood pressure or cholesterol, diabetes etc etc but I would love to see what kind of steps they would take with someone like me. I know I know-not everyone is the same, but I struggle working out and trying to lose weight because of how ridiculously sore I get. There are times when I know I need to push through but then there are times when I know my body enough to know that I just need to slow down and take a break. It just makes my journey slower, more frustrating and I will be honest-hard for me to stay motivated and keep going. Anyway the tears last night-it's just that I want that so bad! I want to be healthier, I want to be happier. I want to feel good about myself again. It's not about numbers on a scale for me-it's about quality of life. I just can't keep living this way......My friend Leslie wrote this on my facebook the other day and it really encouraged me and I need to keep this in mind. She said "it doesn't matter how slow you go. You are lapping those who are sitting on the couch."
Anyway onto today. This morning it probably won't surprise you that I woke up sore. I ate some cheerios within 20 minutes of waking to jump start my metabolism. We had to run some errands which while I knew it was going to be tough I was glad about because I knew it would get me moving which is what I needed to do. Before we left we needed to stop at our apartment complex office to ask them a question. Now normally I would just jump in the truck and we would drive up there...but not today! I decided to walk-boy was that a struggle. I was already so sore, but I did it and I felt good that I did it. I am proud of even the little things I am able to do at this point. But then off we went-in and out of the truck (did I mention Jeremy has a very tall truck which I have to jump in and out of lol), walking around the store etc and it went on like this for several errands. I do have to share one of the awesome finds I got today and that is my new shirt. It was $9.99 and we had a coupon for $10 off at Jcpenneys. So we only paid the tax-awesome deal! Here is my new shirt:
After all the errands I was really really sore at this point-and my body was telling me it was time for a rest. So Jeremy sweet man that he is, made dinner for us. I must confess that my dinner wasn't the most healthy dinner, but I did have healthy meals and snacks the rest of the day and we are going to eat the food in the house. Can't afford not too-so not all the meals will be the best option, but we are working with what we have.
Anyway that's how it's going so far. I am proud of me for continuing to move on a daily basis and trying the best that I can on this new journey. It was raining today-a lot of people would be annoyed by that, but even though I have to have my umbrella, rain is in some ways peaceful and comforting to me. It reminds me of that saying "Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...it's about learning to dance in the rain." I had a very emotional experience once time when it rained a couple years ago. It down poured and I went out and played in the rain. I cried...it was very moving. I am not ready to share any more than that about it at this time, but let's just say I was very touched by the experience.
Oh and last but not least-to explain the title of my blog...I am reminded of Dory from Finding Nemo when she says "just keep swimming, just keep swimming". The motto none of us will soon forget. In my case it will be "just keep moving, just keep moving"!
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Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Fibromyalgia-an explanation
Posted by Angela at 2:05 PM 0 comments
Gotta start somewhere
Well, here I am- overweight and so unhappy. I feel so unhealthy & it's time for a change. I can't let food control my life anymore. No more excuses. A lot of my friends lately have started their journey to a healthier life, and it has inspired me to start as well. It may be a slow journey but it is gonna happen. I probably won't blog every day, and I haven't taken any pics or measurements yet, but I will soon.
So today I went on a walk...1 lap around my apartment complex is 1/2 a mile. I was really hoping to do 2 miles. (not sure why since this would be my 1st day back to walking lol, but nevertheless that's what I tried). My 1st problem was that I started going the wrong way around the complex-the way with more uphills-while that isn't a bad thing I am quite certain that I need to work my way up to it lol. Also it was soooo windy today so that made for a struggle too. So needless to say I made it around one time and my calves were hurting and I was in quite a bit of pain. But I couldn't stop there-1/2 a mile just wasn't enough so I turned around and kept going-the other way-with less hills. I made it a little ways and then I was feeling pretty sore and out of breath. I stopped for a break-luckily it was near the playground so there were some benches for me to sit on. As I sat there I was really upset and disappointed in myself. So upset that I have let myself get this out of shape and unhealthy. This past summer was one of the hottest, & most humid summers I have ever experienced here in Oklahoma. For over a month straight the temps were over 100-I am talkin' 115ish degrees or so. It was crazy-and I don't really do well in the heat-especially that heat-so my point is I had a very inactive summer-and even gained the 10lbs or so I had lost before summer. Talk about discouraging.....
But back to my story-so after a couple minute break, I felt like I could continue so I did-music blasting I was determined to get my 1 mile walk in today...AND I DID! I was so proud of myself for doing that mile. Do I wish I could have done more? Of course! But you gotta start somewhere and I need to remember that I need to start slow and not overdo it.
I plan to eat healthier and the next time we go grocery shopping I hope to buy more healthy snacks this time. I have decided to cut back on things instead of cutting them out completely as far as food goes for no.(since the budget is a little tight at the moment.). Also my #1 big goal is to move every day-do something active-whether it be a walk or just getting out the Wii & doing some Wii fit on there. I can do this-I have to!
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